I remember when I was on my way to Texas my anxiety got super high. I was consistently having thoughts battling each other inside of my head. “What if he sees you and doesn’t love you?” “What if his family doesn’t like you?” Then I had, “I’m coming home to you Jeremy.”
My mind was constantly fighting positivity and negativity. I remember when we landed in Texas I was super nervous, and literally terrified. I kept asking myself if my relationship with Jeremy was going to still happen. We went to the hotel and ended up at Lackland AFB the next morning. At the graduation there were so many people there, I honestly didn’t know which one was Jeremy. But right when I sat down my eyes were just drawn to this really tall guy standing in the back, and that was my little airman. Once the emotional graduation ceremony was over, I totally cried the whole time, we walked up to Jeremy and his family. This is when the nerves hit me, I was completely shut down. The thoughts kept consistently going throughout my mind. I said hello to Jeremy and he just went in and hugged me. As we had a tour of where he stayed in the base, my mind just wouldn’t turn off the really irritating thoughts.
Later that day we went to RiverWalk, which was honestly so beautiful. We were walking around, and when I saw him laughing, smiling, and being so happy, all of the thoughts just disappeared.
This was the reason I flew a thousand miles. This was the same young man I fell in love with in highschool. It honestly felt like nothing changed between us, we’re still completely terrible to each other- okay no I take it back Jeremy’s nice, I’m the one with some issues.
I flew a thousand miles to go see him again. I flew a thousand miles because I knew that he was worth flying to. I flew a thousand miles because I knew the love of my life was in Texas, I didn’t care about the thoughts running through my head at that point. I knew that the thoughts were just going to stop me from enjoying a moment that I knew wouldn’t last very long. At that point I ignored them, which is something I normally tend to not do. I just sat there and enjoyed the little time I had with him. I fell in love with him over and over and over again that day.
I wish I could go back, I’d fly a thousand miles any day. But I can’t wait for our adventures when Jeremy comes to Florida, more love to come.
I'm a huge fan of chicken nuggets, and enthusiastically excited about what God as in store for my life. My other half is currently in the Air Force, so a lot of blog posts will be about the military as of right now.
Incase no one told you today:
YOU ARE AMAZING
YOU ARE LOVED
YOU ARE ONE OF A KIND
YOU ARE SPECIAL
YOU ARE MAGNIFICENT
YOU ARE WANTED
YOU ARE A MASTERPIECE
YOU ARE WONDERFUL
YOU ARE JOYFUL
YOU ARE TALENTED
YOU ARE GREAT
YOU ARE FANTASTIC
YOU ARE A QUEEN
YOU ARE LOVED BY SOMEONE WHO MADE YOU
YOU ARE KIND
YOU ARE YOU, don't let anyone change that.