How much effort do you put into taking your Instagram pictures? I do my hair, my makeup, I make sure I find the PERFECT lighting & that my outfit is completely on point. This process can take up to about 1-3 hours! That doesn’t even include the photoshoot time..
After that I chose only the picture I like and that I want the world to see. I make sure that people only see the best pictures of me fake smiling and laughing my head off. I choose the filters I want to add over my photo to make my picture pop.
In today’s age, people like to photoshop their pictures. They make sure that their acne isn’t showing or that they look a lot thinner than they already are.
We expect our feed to be perfect and we want everyone to think that our lives are perfect too.
Let me tell you, life isn’t ever going to be perfect. There’s going to be bumpy roads that we won’t be able to photoshop to make it smooth. There’s going to be times where we can’t even get out of bed because we are so clearly devastated, and we can’t fake a laugh to make it look like we’re happy.
We’re posting all the wrong things on social media. We aren’t posting what’s REAL. We aren’t posting what we actually want to post. We’re posting what we think is going to get more likes or what’s going to match our feed more. We need to be our true authentic selves. For all we know, we can’t filter out the imperfections in real life.
Looking through YouTube videos and just seeing the amazing life that people are living, while traveling and starting a family is something I always wanted. I have always wanted to get married and have like a thousand kids running around the house. In 2017 I fell in love with this boy in my study hall period. He was a complete dork, to this day he still is, but he just caught my eye the moment he walked in. Later that fall we started dating and now in 2019 seeing how our relationship has progressed is amazing, and heartbreaking too.
Jeremy is in the Air Force, if you couldn’t tell from my previous posts hahah. He’s currently stationed overseas, by this I mean over 7 thousand miles away from where I am, and more than a 12 hour time difference. This has definitely taking a toll on our relationship given that this tour is over a year long. I totally regretted not getting married to him straight out of BMT, but at the same time we both weren’t ready for marriage at that time in our lives. It’s hard not being able to see the one everyday.
I was recently at the beach looking the sunrise on a family road trip. I saw this couple with blankets piled on their shoulders. The boy carried the girl onto the beach on his back and my mind just immediately went straight to remembering the time where Jeremy wouldn’t put me down as we walked around an art museum. Every time I step into a place where we once stood my heart breaks. But at the same time I can remember all the amazing memories we had and even being able to create more for the rest of our lives.
The amount of times I’ve said long distance is hard I totally meant it. The amount of times I said long distance is worth it.. ha wait when did I say that? Long distance is so worth the wait. It’s worth being able to jump into their arms when they come home and feeling their warmth against you when you wake up in the morning. The little things that you’ve always missed will come straight back to you, and that makes it all worth it.
Don’t even get me started on how deployment will probably feel like, because I’ll probably be hiding under my bed crying the whole time. Even though his tour is no where near done, I’ve learned how it feels to just live on your own. Not have to rely on someone else to talk to or need. I always look forward to FaceTime calls at 4am and Jeremy telling me how exciting work was and what he did that day. It’s making us become our own people living away from each other, and it’s good to have that space. I feel like preparing for marriage is terrifying at the same time it’s breathtaking. You’re going to be spending the rest of your life with this human being and there’s no backing out. I don’t think that I’ll ever be ready to say “I’m excited and prepared to be a ‘military wife’” because there’s so much to learn and experience throughout this relationship. But I’m definitely ready to spend the rest of my life with this man.
I'm a huge fan of chicken nuggets, and enthusiastically excited about what God as in store for my life. My other half is currently in the Air Force, so a lot of blog posts will be about the military as of right now.
Incase no one told you today:
YOU ARE AMAZING
YOU ARE LOVED
YOU ARE ONE OF A KIND
YOU ARE SPECIAL
YOU ARE MAGNIFICENT
YOU ARE WANTED
YOU ARE A MASTERPIECE
YOU ARE WONDERFUL
YOU ARE JOYFUL
YOU ARE TALENTED
YOU ARE GREAT
YOU ARE FANTASTIC
YOU ARE A QUEEN
YOU ARE LOVED BY SOMEONE WHO MADE YOU
YOU ARE KIND
YOU ARE YOU, don't let anyone change that.