I'm sure you have been told many times that you were put on this earth for a purpose, and that you wake up every morning because God allows you to. If no one has told you that, then now you know. But do you actually believe it, do you believe that God sent his one and only son to die on a cross so our sins could be forgiven. When he Jesus died he thought about you, yeah you heard me correctly, he died for you. There could be certain situations that you are going through, so you may not believe that God loves you, because you may feel like you're going through a tough time. A friend used to tell me that God won't put a wall in front of you that you cannot get over. I used to think that he was full of himself, and that the situation I was in was bigger than myself, and that God couldn't even make it better.
God won't put a wall in front of you that you cannot get over.
God's love is everlasting, and it is never ending. There are days where you may feel like giving up, you may not even want to live anymore. I know what that feels like, and I know that it takes a lot of energy to just get out of bed in the morning. I used to love this boy more than I loved God, and it caused me to loose my relationship with God. But what I didn't know is that God was right there with me through the whole time. I built a wall so high just so I could block him out, I didn't care about God whatsoever, but he was sitting my by side calling out to me.
Sit down for 10 or even 20 minutes and have a talk with God, he's always there listening to you. Even if you are constantly sinning, he doesn't care about any of that - Jesus already solved that situation for you. He loves you. It will take a while for you to realize it, or maybe you just have this feeling of happiness running through your veins at this very moment.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
For I know the plans i have for you," declares the lord, "Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
1 John 4:4
You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.
Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.
When I went through a very tough time in my life I had such amazing friends who were there for me, even when I didn't realize it. I was at the edge of committing suicide and I got sent this text message, and to this day I still go through my notes and I find this. To the people who wrote this, thank you for believing in me, you guys are amazing. This dates back to August 6th 2014, it's almost 3 years old. I love you guys so much, thank you.
You are not alone, I can tell you that from experience, you will NEVER be alone.
100+ reasons for you to live:
1. You're kind
2. You're beautiful
3. You have touched the hearts of everyone you met
4. Your smile lights up a room instantly
5. You're perfect
6. You are just so amazing
7. Just knowing that you're there for me, keeps me from doing anything to myself
8. You've changed my life and made me happier
9. Even if I feel like the world is caving in, you make me smile
10. You're my Abbae
11. Even if you mess up, so does everyone
12. Just the though of you not in my life, makes me cry
13. I love you
14. Even after all you've been through, you stay so brave
15. You're perfectly imperfect
16. You always bring a smile to my face
17. You have so much to live for
18. You're an amazing writer, and you can go somewhere today
19. You have so many goals that you can't just leave
20. Even when I was mad at you, I loved you because👇
21. You're the best friend that I've had in so long
22. You're almost through with life
23. After highschool, your life will take flight and you'll be so much happier
24. What you want to do, is permanent
25. What you're feeling is temporary
26. I love you
27. No matter what you do, I will always love you
28. Even when you think you're ruining someone's life, you're making better
29. The people you say hate you, were just mad
(A old friend's 10) I took out his name because it's private, but I still wanted to include it.
30. She give me a reason to wake up in the morning
31. She means the world to everyone around her
32. Dont hurt the people you love even if you think they dont love you back
33. You cant undo death
34. She make me smile by just hearing her voice
35. If she goes she'll never learn to penny board
36. Dont ever take the easy way out
37. I would prbly die too...(without you)
38. So many people care about you
39. You have changed my life completely and you give me hope, i dont wanna lose the only thing i care about
(Another old friend's 10) I took out his name too, because it's private.
40. YOU HAVE FRIENDS THAT CARE ABOUT YOU.
41. YOU WILL REGRET IT.
42. YOU WILL MAKE YOUR FRIENDS SUFFER AND POSSIBLY DEPRESS THEM.
43. YOU HAVE AN AWESOME PERSONALITY THAT YOU DEFINITELY DO NOT WANT TO GO TO WASTE
44. SO MANY PEOPLE WILL MISS YOU IF YOU LEAVE
45. YOU JUST WANT YOUR SUFFERING TO END, IM SURE YOU DONT WANT TO DIE
46. REMEMBER (Old friend's name), HE HELPED YOU, HOW WOULD HE REACT.
47. WE ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU, THROUGH THICK AND THIN, RELATIONSHIP OR NOT WE STILL LOVE YOU
48. YOU ARE NOT A WASTE OF SPACE OR TIME
49. LIFE IS FUCKING AWESOME
(Back to one of the best friends I had) Keeping her name private too haha
50. Your eyes
51. Your smile
52. Your nose, and the little freckle in the middle of it
53. Your hair
54. Your scars
55. And how they mean that you've fought.
56. Your passion for everything you love
57. They way that you won't let anyone tell you how to live your life
58. Your independence even though you're not afraid to ask for help
59. You. You are a reason all on it's own because, no matter how bad things get, you pull through
(More from an old friend)
60. People would cry.
62. No one would wannna go to school
63. Future chances
65. Everyone would feel guilty
66. You're loved for who you are
67. Suicide is a permanent decisions for a temporary feeling.
68. I care alot about her (He said this, but not to put on the list)
(Back to one of the best friends I had)
69. The way you laugh when you see this number
(A really good friend who I'm still friends with) (Yes, I even asked him for help)
70. I guess I wouldn't want a bad thing to happen to her
71. And dying is never the answer
(Back to one of the best friends I had)
72. He didn't have much to say, but he still helped
73. *Old friend* really does love you.
74. It's really late so no one's awake, but these people are still willing to help.
75. Even if you think your family doesn't care, they do
76. Even if you think no one cares, they do
77. Regardless of how much you try to push me away, I'll always be there to help you up once you fall (and I can literally pick you up)
(Some random girl's reasons) But thank you, because you still helped even though I didn't know you
78. Rainy days
82. Oversized sweaters
83. Long hugs
85. Fuzzy socks
88. Disney movies
89. Best friends/ friends
92. Hot chocolate
93. Snow cones
94. Making babies smile
95. The beach
97. New shoes
98. Water balloon fights
100. Warm showers
101. Flowers in the spring
102. Waking up on Christmas morning
103. Taco Bell
104. The smell after rain
105. And I'd do anything to help someone stay alive
106. First kisses
107. Really good books
108. Going to the zoo
109. Carving pumpkins
110. Getting letters in the mail
113. Your favorite band in concert
115. The warmth of the sun
116. Baby animals
118. Fuzzy blankets
119. Fuzzy animals
120. Fuzzy hats
121. Animal hat things
123. Stuffed animals
125. FOR FUCKS SAKE CUDDLING
127. Neck kisses
130. Disney world
131. Universal studios
132. The smell of something yummy baking
135. Ice cream
136. Soft objects
137. Like things you just wanna rub on your face
(Back to one of the best friends I had again)
139. The fact that this list was supposed to only be 100
140. People care. We love you Abby 💜💙🌚
(*Old friend* GOT ALL OF THESE PEOPLE TO WRITE ABOUT YOU, YOU BETTER GIVE HIM A HUGE THANK YOU I only got help from him and *Friend I'm still friends with*)
*Random girl* wanted to add this: "I wish you guys the best. And tell her for me that even though I dont know her or whats shes been through but that I love her and shes beautiful and she can get through this. Things will get better I promise. It may not be today tomorrow or next week but I promise her eventually things will get better. We need her to be alive. She can do this
And she will get through it and become stronger than before. Suicide eliminates the chance of things getting better."
Words cannot explain how much this has meant to me all of these years, I hope that whoever needed this learns from it. Yes it may be from my friends, but there are so many reasons for you to live, you should never give up.
I'm a huge fan of chicken nuggets, and enthusiastically excited about what God as in store for my life. My other half is currently in the Air Force, so a lot of blog posts will be about the military as of right now.
Incase no one told you today:
YOU ARE AMAZING
YOU ARE LOVED
YOU ARE ONE OF A KIND
YOU ARE SPECIAL
YOU ARE MAGNIFICENT
YOU ARE WANTED
YOU ARE A MASTERPIECE
YOU ARE WONDERFUL
YOU ARE JOYFUL
YOU ARE TALENTED
YOU ARE GREAT
YOU ARE FANTASTIC
YOU ARE A QUEEN
YOU ARE LOVED BY SOMEONE WHO MADE YOU
YOU ARE KIND
YOU ARE YOU, don't let anyone change that.