Most people ask God for: love, healthy relationships, food, an amazing test grade, health, healing. What I’m asking God, ‘please never let me have to get an IV ever again’. I’ve been dealing with pains for a couple of weeks and it got to the point I was in a fetal position crying in bed. So my mom rushed me to the ER. When they ask you on a scale from 1-10 how much your pain is, I’ll never say a 10. Has anyone else done that? You know you’re in so much pain but you have never felt what a 10 feels like so you don’t say a 10. I always say a 8, or 9.

I feel like sometimes we hold back our 10 from God. We know we’re feeling is a 10 but we hold it back because we’re afraid to tell him our pain, and our burdens. We don’t share our true feelings or emotions with him, and we hide it and just tell him it’s an 8 or 9. Instead of telling him everything, we just figure out that God knows everything so we just decide not to tell him. 

​I knew at that moment it was a 10, but I was holding myself back- knowing that someday there will be so much more pain that I’ll go through. We should tell the truth about how we’re feeling all the time, whether it’s from God or visiting a doctors office. We need to be transparent and tell God EVERYTHING! He needs to know when you’re dealing with a 4 or a 9. He wants to know how we’re feeling, he wants you to tell him! Tell God how your pain is on a rate from 1-10, and be completely honest. If you want to strengthen your relationship with him, you need to be honest with him.

Have you ever wondered what it would be like to have a completely different life? Maybe your parents are in the process of getting a divorce, or you hate the school that you’re going to be attending in the fall. The stress may be getting to you, or maybe you just want to look like your favorite YouTuber! There’s a point where we all usually wish we were someone else, or our lives were completely different. There’s days where I wish that too, when times are rough I just wish I wasn’t in the situation that I was in. 
I was born with a skin condition called Urticaria Pigmentosa, and I’ve lived with it all my life. It gets hard, it gets hard a lot. There’s points where I don’t even want to get out of bed. There’s times I’d beg God to let me be someone else, or just have a completely different life. It effects my everyday living, I can't go into the sun some days, or even sweat. I loved to dance, like honestly no matter how bad I was at it I was completely in love with it. I had to stop dancing, and there's a part of me where I wish I could start doing it again too. But I knew that I would just have to find other hobbies that I could do, and I ended up getting into writing!
Did you know that God gives you your life, your situation, even your body FOR A REASON. Literally your life was completely planned even before you were thought of! No matter what you’re dealing with, or going through, it’s made for you to get stronger! Sometimes it’s even made to help other people! My skin condition has helped me see life through a different eye, and I’m able to connect with other people who have diseases and think that it's going to ruin their life and tell them that their disease or condition isn't their whole story.
What you're dealing with isn't a whole chapter in your book of life, it's just a paragraph. Maybe you're not dealing with a skin condition, but your parents are separating and you feel like you're to blame (let me tell you you're not to blame). But whatever you're going through was always meant to happen. God will NEVER give you something that you can't handle in your life. But don't wish that you had a different life. Your story has a meaning, your story doesn't end or pause because one chapter of it gets difficult. Your story will never end, God has a whole different book for you when you leave this Earth and enter His kingdom.