I didn’t get much sleep last night. I kept missing my husband sleeping beside me at night. Jeremy breathes VERY loudly at night, it’s sometimes overwhelming. But here’s the thing I love about it, being able to just lay in bed and hear him breathing it’s actually really soothing. It’s like taking a medication course to help you fall asleep, but yet here I am with my own giant loud speaker that’s actually sleeping right next to me!
I kept tossing and turning, thinking about my first day at my new job (SO STRESSFUL!) How it would be, if I’d do bad then get fired my first day.. just everything was running through my head.
Thankfully my best friend was up at nearly 12am and we texted for a bit, I was listening to the frozen 2 soundtrack (who isn’t at 12am?)
I laid in bed looking at the picture of my husband that I had placed next to my bed, sobbing uncontrollably. Looking at this man and missing him so much, knowing that in a couple of months we’ll be together again, but that wasn’t now. It isn’t this extract moment in time when I’d most likely be waking up next to him about to make some coffee in the morning and I’d get my “good morning beautiful” talk as he smiles and kisses me.
It all isn’t right now, and all honesty IT SUCKS!
I get a call around 4am telling me he’s landed and that he’s at the airport. I got so sad, wishing it was all just a dream. This is the man of my dreams, my husband, my best friend- and here he is over 7,000 miles away from me again. I couldn’t ever tell him how proud I am of him for serving our country and being the most amazing man I could ever have in a lifetime. But it’s just time to stop sitting in these piles of being sad and wishing what could be different. These are the times that God has planned along these cross roads in your life. There’s two paths you can take and honestly girl if I could shove you straight into the direction of the amazing life God has planned for you.. I would.
I woke up this morning, feeling sad waiting for a phone call from my husband. But I decided to just stop worrying. I made myself some coffee and grabbed a new book I’m reading. As I sat down sipping my coffee and reading my hubby called me. I wasn’t sitting here groaning and moaning about how sad I was. I was taking my morning by the hands and telling it that it’s going to be an amazing morning, and it totally is.
I’m sitting on the phone drinking my coffee while my husband is watching movies on Disney plus telling me about his ride here. It’s something I couldn’t ever be more grateful for. I’m so thankful God woke me up this beautiful morning. He is SO worthy, worthy of everything. He’s creating this moment of time for YOU, for you to read this and realize that it’s time for you to take your mornings by storm. Stop living your life in the past. Every morning is a new morning and this morning was made for YOU.
You are His child, you’re made in God’s image (HOW AMAZING IS THAT?) You were made to be loved darling, never forget that.
Go make yourself some coffee, grab your favorite book. Go put some makeup on and put on your favorite pair of jeans. Make this morning YOUR time with God. Spend the morning together as you thank Him for this glorious moment in time, He created it just for you.
Every single letter that I send to Jeremy ends with a “Stay strong, you got this”. Because I know that whatever he’s going through is difficult, and probably even life changing. But there isn’t one thing that he is doing over there that he can’t handle. He’s literally got this. The military is no joke, during training they’re shaping these amazing people to be able to fight for our country when needed. They’re there to experience a whole new way to live, and learn the ways of whichever branch they’ve chosen.
Jeremy leaving for BMT (Basic Military Training) was such a huge and saddening time in my life. There were definitely some days where I just thought that I couldn’t handle it anymore. But then I remember what I wrote in every single letter that I sent him “you got this”. I had to sit there and listen to myself too, “I got this”! Jeremy leaving was definitely difficult. It was a lifestyle change for the both of us, although I was here at home and he’s a thousand miles away. I knew that it was what God wanted for the both of our lives, and I had to listen to what I was telling Jeremy this whole time.
But guess what? You do too! It’s the beginning of the week, it’s a fresh new start! You got this! No matter what you’re dealing with, God’s got you! YOU GOT THIS! Don’t lose hope, don’t let the storm you’re dealing with destroy you. God has such amazing and wonderful plans for your life! Whether you’re missing someone who’s serving our country, or if you’re just dealing with a bad grade on a test- you got this! Don’t lose hope! There’s such amazing and wonderful things out in this world. Babe, you got this.
I'm a huge fan of chicken nuggets, and enthusiastically excited about what God as in store for my life. My other half is currently in the Air Force, so a lot of blog posts will be about the military as of right now.
Incase no one told you today:
YOU ARE AMAZING
YOU ARE LOVED
YOU ARE ONE OF A KIND
YOU ARE SPECIAL
YOU ARE MAGNIFICENT
YOU ARE WANTED
YOU ARE A MASTERPIECE
YOU ARE WONDERFUL
YOU ARE JOYFUL
YOU ARE TALENTED
YOU ARE GREAT
YOU ARE FANTASTIC
YOU ARE A QUEEN
YOU ARE LOVED BY SOMEONE WHO MADE YOU
YOU ARE KIND
YOU ARE YOU, don't let anyone change that.