High school, the craziest 4 years of my life. High school was filled with heartbreak, school dances, hospital visits.. many to be in fact, and several hundred mental breakdowns. I met the love of my life within these four years of school, and as we started dating senior year of high school he told me he wanted to join the military. I laughed it off just thinking "you know he'll never do it he'll end up staying here with me and we can have a cute little family and move up north of Florida or something." Well boy was I wrong...
As senior year came to an end he ended up joining the United States Air Force, and I was not happy about it. I did not even want to think about the fact that the love of my life will be leaving me to go parade around with a gun and be deployed. I was being super selfish the whole time. I remember being so scared thinking if he ever died in combat or something happened on his base, and I'd have to tell our kids that their father passed away.. every what if came straight into my head as the days leading up to him leaving came closer. I didn't want to be a military wife, I wanted him to stay home and spend time with me every waking second.
Even before he met me he was going to join the military, wether or not he was with someone. I couldn't change what his dream was, but I could join it instead.
Yet here I am... Becoming a military wife!!
Instead of sitting here and looking at the things I could have changed about him, overtime I sat there and embraced it. I couldn't change the fact that he wanted to be in the military, so I supported him anyway I could.
I flew out to Texas, even though we were together for less than a year, and I went to his BMT graduation. I wrote him letters every day, sometimes even more than one (sorry babe). I stopped looking at the what ifs, and I just tried to look on the positive side.
He had his dream before he met me, and now I'm just becoming a part of the whole journey. I couldn't even be happier in life. Currently he's almost done his one year tour overseas, yay! I would honestly drop everything and be there with him if I could, but we're stuck in a 14 hour time zone difference, but the relationship's still going strong. We're getting married in less than 70 days, which is so crazy!
Life is going to be a journey with moving around, deployment, and starting a family. The thing is that there isn't anyone else I would want to do this with.
I love this man so much that all honesty, sometimes I don't even care that he's in the military, doing a dangerous job that could hurt him one day. Its scary- but it's something that he wanted to do. I would sacrifice my whole world for this man, and I can't wait to become his wife.
Loving someone, that's the most important thing.. When I realized he wanted to be in the military I was furious, but I could never in a million years change his mind or make him want to do otherwise. So I became okay with it, I became okay that I couldn't change his dreams, and I loved him even more for that.
Also have I mentioned how cute this boy looks in his uniform? I would literally kill to see him in it everyday.
I'm a huge fan of chicken nuggets, and enthusiastically excited about what God as in store for my life. My other half is currently in the Air Force, so a lot of blog posts will be about the military as of right now.
Incase no one told you today:
YOU ARE AMAZING
YOU ARE LOVED
YOU ARE ONE OF A KIND
YOU ARE SPECIAL
YOU ARE MAGNIFICENT
YOU ARE WANTED
YOU ARE A MASTERPIECE
YOU ARE WONDERFUL
YOU ARE JOYFUL
YOU ARE TALENTED
YOU ARE GREAT
YOU ARE FANTASTIC
YOU ARE A QUEEN
YOU ARE LOVED BY SOMEONE WHO MADE YOU
YOU ARE KIND
YOU ARE YOU, don't let anyone change that.