I had to go take my senior photos this Tuesday, and let me tell you I was completely terrified. I'm not flawless, or at least decent looking. I left at 11am to go get my hair cut and styled, I ended up leaving at 12:30, which isn't that bad whatsoever. I left the salon feeling so happy and my hair felt so bouncy I loved having a change. We rushed to the mall which was 20 minutes away to go ahead and get my 'stache and brows done. IT HURT SO BADLY. I never liked getting my brows threaded or even something like my mustache. The woman doing my brows told me that they were red so she put on this green liquid onto my brows, in about less than 2 minutes half of my face turned super red. I looked like a walking horror film gone wrong.
The workers at MAC seemed SO SCARED of me, they asked me If I was okay and I didn't even know how to feel at that moment. I couldn't reschedule the appointment because they didn't have any time slots later for that day. So my mom ran and got a cold water bottle and placed it on the areas with the worst hives. It was one of the worst pains ever. I was so heart broken and scared that none of the MAC employees would be able to do makeup on my face given the reaction. One of the girls looked at me and just chuckled and said, "There's nothing makeup can't fix." I sat there and started thinking, hmm that's actually true. You can cover anything up with makeup, acne scars and even tattoos. So I calmed down a bit thinking that one of the artists would be able to fix this disaster on my face, and she did.
I felt so beautiful and flawless at that moment, I loved myself for the first time in a long time. I felt that I could actually smile because I actually looked beautiful and I was just so alive at that very moment. Every time I looked into the mirror I was like.. Dang who in the heck is that beauty.
After I got home I was so eager to go ahead and take off my makeup I was literally so excited. When I had all of that makeup on I didn't feel like myself. When I looked in the mirror I saw a different person than who I was. I remember one of the girls at MAC telling me that "Makeup fixes everything." But when I look back to think about that, its not true. Makeup can't fix my personality, it can't fix who I truly am. Yes it can make me look flawless and beautiful, but who says that beauty is only on the outside? Why does beauty have to be limited to what people see on the outside? God created us to look the way we are, our hair color, our hair, our eye color, freckles, everything. God created us with "flaws". In our eyes flaws are imperfections, what God sees is so much more. He put that freckle on your face, the bags under your eyes, your "bushy" eyebrows. If God wanted us to put foundation on our skin, pluck our eyebrows, or shave - babies wouldn't be born with any of the "flaws" that we think we have. God created us to be in his image, he wants us to look like what he made us to be. Makeup can't fix everything.
I love myself, makeup or not. I know that God created me so I could be happy, not so I could live on what the world's standards are. I am beautiful with or without makeup, without my hair done or super expensive clothes. I think that once we let go of the fact that we'll never be able to live up to the world's standards is when our lives will honestly and truly change. When I put makeup on I don't change, I'm still the same person that I am relentlessly of how different I look on the outside. I'm still me, and you're still you. Is makeup really worth it? Is it really going to help hide your flaws, maybe it can on the outside, but trust me it won't change anything on the inside.
I'm a huge fan of chicken nuggets, and enthusiastically excited about what God as in store for my life. My other half is currently in the Air Force, so a lot of blog posts will be about the military as of right now.
Incase no one told you today:
YOU ARE AMAZING
YOU ARE LOVED
YOU ARE ONE OF A KIND
YOU ARE SPECIAL
YOU ARE MAGNIFICENT
YOU ARE WANTED
YOU ARE A MASTERPIECE
YOU ARE WONDERFUL
YOU ARE JOYFUL
YOU ARE TALENTED
YOU ARE GREAT
YOU ARE FANTASTIC
YOU ARE A QUEEN
YOU ARE LOVED BY SOMEONE WHO MADE YOU
YOU ARE KIND
YOU ARE YOU, don't let anyone change that.