I won't say The Reasons Why I Loved You, because that will never be true. I love you, and there are days that I kill myself over the fact that I do. The breakup was incredibly hard, but it was well worth it. I can see you getting married in a couple of years, and being happy with someone that is not me, but that's okay. When I fell in love with you, all I ever wanted was you to be happy. I wanted you to be happy no matter what. I didn't make you happy, but you sure as heck made me one of the happiest girls alive.
The breakup was incredibly hard, but it was well worth it.
I know that I can't change God's plans for me, or even for you. But they're sure as heck amazing for the both of us. We will both get everything we've ever wanted in our lives, even if it's without each other. You left 9 months ago, and every day I was just more and more upset trying to make myself happy. I dated other people and I found nothing. God had placed you in my life so I can feel loved, something I haven't ever felt before, I wanted it so badly, so he blessed me with you. I will always love you, but not in the way you may think. I love you because you're you. You laugh at the weirdest things, and let me tell you it's defiantly weird. When you take off your glasses you look like a completely different person. I love you because you sit down and listen to me rant even now that we're not together anymore. I love you because you were my best friend, and I'm happy that we're friends.
I love you because you make me happy, you always have. I know that will never stop because that's the type of person you are. Wether you may be going through a difficult situation you put people on top of that and you care and love for them, you taught me how to do that.
You taught me that even though situations are tough, you can't change them, but you can change how you react to them. You taught me leadership, the way you talk and teach people to be the best them they can ever be, you see the potential in people. You taught me how to love, now someone would tell me that God teaches us to love because he loved us first. You brought me to God, throughout our whole relationship you were the one to push me towards him even after you walked away.
I love you so much to the point where I have to let you go. I have to push back all of the amazing memories, and even the difficult ones. I love you so much to the point where I am going to take better care of myself and the people around me - just like you did to me. I'm going to take what you have taught me and I am going to make a better life for myself. No matter how much it hurts me to let you go, I'm going to do it. We'll create new memories as friends, and hopefully that will never go away. These are the reasons why I love you, and I will never stop.
You were my first, and people say that the first one is the worst one when it comes to a broken heart. But the thing is that you never broke my heart, of course at first it felt like that but you helped heal what was broken. I won't ever love you in the way I used to, but I'm happy you're still in my life, and I hope it'll stay that way.
Thank you to anyone who helped me through the breakup. Telling me it'll get better and that I'll be happy with someone at some point. I am happy, without him. It took me a while to realise it. A breakup is hard, but time will never heal you - only God can. If you don't give God the situation he will never heal the situation that'll never go on. I didn't do that, and my heart was broken for a very long time. Thank you God for giving me this situation and allowing me to Grow.
I'm a huge fan of chicken nuggets, and enthusiastically excited about what God as in store for my life. My other half is currently in the Air Force, so a lot of blog posts will be about the military as of right now.
Incase no one told you today:
YOU ARE AMAZING
YOU ARE LOVED
YOU ARE ONE OF A KIND
YOU ARE SPECIAL
YOU ARE MAGNIFICENT
YOU ARE WANTED
YOU ARE A MASTERPIECE
YOU ARE WONDERFUL
YOU ARE JOYFUL
YOU ARE TALENTED
YOU ARE GREAT
YOU ARE FANTASTIC
YOU ARE A QUEEN
YOU ARE LOVED BY SOMEONE WHO MADE YOU
YOU ARE KIND
YOU ARE YOU, don't let anyone change that.